Throughout the painting process one of the hardest parts for me is the beginning. This is the time when you sit there with a blank sheet of paper/surface thinking of the steps required to transform it into the beautiful work of art that you invision.
And throughout those thoughts, you recall all of the stages that will be involved, the challenges that each stage brings, your weaknesses, your strengths…what could go wrong… and every other synopsis possible in an effort to foresee the failure of your future.
For quite some time, the fear in beginning a new piece was paralyzing… but the source of that fear was very clear… it was a fear of failure. And you know what I would often do? I’d look at the paper, think about what I wanted to drawn and then put the paper back in its package and say “maybe another day”… Other days I’d start but barely give it sufficient time to see it through to even the initial stages… It has taken a little while to break that habit.
To some extent, remaining confident enough to ‘start’, is still a work in progress. I often remind myself “have faith in the process“. Do you have this same approach at times when it comes to starting new things? You’re not alone. In fact it seems quite common whether you are an artist, writer, looking to start a new business venture etc. While reading I cane across the following quotes:
No matter what you do or where you go, there’s a point at which you’re just getting started. Think of the high school graduate. The new employee. The marathon runner. Sometimes, that beginning stage is exciting. Other times, daunting. Many times, it’s both. And so it is with painting. Whether you’re a new student of art or an established practitioner, every time you start a new painting, you are—in a sense—a “beginner,” determining how and where to put down that first mark. – In The Beginning” by Anne Hevener
But we can have 99 successes and 1 failure yet, somehow, we tend to internalize the bad experience…Ultimately, we are like waves pounding the beach. We just keep at it, knowing that we are doing what we were put on earth to do and always trying to advance down the endless road of learning and becoming better artists and people… – Thoughts on Rejection by Richard Christian Nelson
When you fear failure, which I should add is often “a shadow of one’s own making”, we set ourselves up for disappointment before we even try. So while you’re on this journey called life, try to focus more on the opportunities each challenge brings, the opportunity for growth. Most times they afford us with new information and experiences to apply going forward. Whatever your goal or challenge, be encouraged! Nothing worth having comes easy. It may take some courage to start, but you won’t regret it. EVERYONE starts somewhere, and remember, every master was once a beginner.
Take a couple minutes to listen to the below speech – How Failure Leads to Success by Denzel Washington. I’ve listened to it a few times and each time I take away more from it.